Our firstborn, our daughter, Georgiana Bliss, passed away in my womb on March 20, 2011. She was 38 weeks old. This is our story about trying to live our lives without her.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Happy Mother's Day
Happy Mother's Day to the strongest, most wonderful women I know--those mamas who have to endure this day missing one or more of their children.
We remember. We remember, and we celebrate all your babies, no matter where they are.
Despite holding B, I'm finding this day to still be particularly hard-- obviously because of missing my Andrew, but thinking of others mamas missing their babies and remembering back on just how hard last year was as well. That feeling of complete and utter despair cannot be forgotten just because circumstances are slightly improved from the previous year. Because I'll miss one baby every since Mother's Day until I go to be with him.
Oh, Mother's Day. Just a few years ago I wouldn't have given this day a second thought. It was never a big deal. But now, it carries so much weight.
I was given "forget me nots" yesterday which make me think of my babies- tiny, beautiful, and mostly unnoticed by the world. But their impact on my life & heart are not proportional to the tiny size. I love them & miss them. And I was touched to get "forget me nots" as a gift.
BUT, the BEST mother's day gift was getting to celebrate our little Abigail's 4 week birthday! You can see pictures of her at: www.lempskies.blogspot.com
And an "Amen" to you, too. This Mother's Day for the first time feels like it's about all of us, not just me, since having ventured this year into this sacred and sometimes surreal world of internet relationships amongst these mamas of lost children.
I haven't yet read your blog thoroughly - started to, and it's all so familiar and present that I had to stop for now. I'm currently 6 weeks behind you, and like you and many of us, praying that every day sees us another day towards meeting our healthy, living child.
I just came off By The Brooke's blog though, and your Mother's Day comment had me laughing aloud, so I had to come by and say 'hello'. All the very, very best to you and you little one.
You said it, sister!
ReplyDeleteDespite holding B, I'm finding this day to still be particularly hard-- obviously because of missing my Andrew, but thinking of others mamas missing their babies and remembering back on just how hard last year was as well. That feeling of complete and utter despair cannot be forgotten just because circumstances are slightly improved from the previous year. Because I'll miss one baby every since Mother's Day until I go to be with him.
Oh, Mother's Day. Just a few years ago I wouldn't have given this day a second thought. It was never a big deal. But now, it carries so much weight.
I was given "forget me nots" yesterday which make me think of my babies- tiny, beautiful, and mostly unnoticed by the world. But their impact on my life & heart are not proportional to the tiny size. I love them & miss them. And I was touched to get "forget me nots" as a gift.
ReplyDeleteBUT, the BEST mother's day gift was getting to celebrate our little Abigail's 4 week birthday! You can see pictures of her at: www.lempskies.blogspot.com
I'll pray for you & your little boy.
And an "Amen" to you, too. This Mother's Day for the first time feels like it's about all of us, not just me, since having ventured this year into this sacred and sometimes surreal world of internet relationships amongst these mamas of lost children.
ReplyDeleteI haven't yet read your blog thoroughly - started to, and it's all so familiar and present that I had to stop for now. I'm currently 6 weeks behind you, and like you and many of us, praying that every day sees us another day towards meeting our healthy, living child.
I just came off By The Brooke's blog though, and your Mother's Day comment had me laughing aloud, so I had to come by and say 'hello'. All the very, very best to you and you little one.
Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you and will be tomorrow as well! Please update us when yu can!
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